In the elevator there where me, two other females and two males that I didn't know personally. While on the elevator it suddenly stopped for unknown reasons, we all looked at each other confused. I was by the panel and looking to see what I can do and I saw the emergency button, I asked the others if I should press the emergency button and the two males said no. I was looking at that button as if that was the answer to our problem, but couldn't find the courage to press it, and then all of a sudden the elevators drops. I was praying that the emergency brakes to work and cause the elevator to stop before reaching the bottom. They caught the elevator just it time, and then I saw a sign that said to open the doors to the elevator, and when I did, all I saw was a field and river moving quickly, and I realize that the scene moved to us being on a run away train.
We where moving at rapid speed, I didn't know where we were headed but I did know that it was going to end in death if I didn't get off. When we saw the river the two men wanted everyone to jump off the train and hopefully land in the river. I didn't want to because it seems like instant death because it was too far of a jump and a long way down. The men climbed up on top of the roof on the train to make the jump, us girls watched as they fell to the river and made a big splash. At one point it seem like I was the one making the jump, and then it cut back to me watching them. I see one break the surface, and the other one didn't come back up, so I felt like he was dead. I couldn't see what happened further. The train continue on it's course to the end, and the river soon disappeared and was placed with a flat grassy land. It was like we where in the middle of nowhere, and use girls didn't know what to do but we had to figure out something because the train was about to run out of tracks.
My mind was racing as to finding a solution when the train slowed down to almost a stop and I found the opportunity to jump off, the other girls didn't want too. So I pushed one off and them jumped off myself and ran along the train to grab the other by the foot and dragged her off. Once we where off the train sped up and moved passed us. We couldn't see the train any longer and I looked at our surroundings and it felt like we where all alone, that there was no help around. Then I happen to see a highway suddenly appeared on the other side of the train tracks. We started running to the fence that separated us from the highway. We all were hurting and bleeding from the jump but I didn't care, as long as I can reach that highway I knew that we would be saved, but before I could climb the fence to get to the highway I woke up.
This is what I got from the dream as I wrote it down at church the following day.
(1). The elevator represents, my life falling away from God if I fall back to my old ways with being gay and unfaithful to God.
(2). The people of the elevator with me represent the flesh of myself (holding me back from the correct path).
(3). The two men represented my flesh, the sinful and fleshy things that I want because they feel easy and good.
(4). The two women represents my past and future.
(5). I myself represents the present, the in between wanting to follow good faithfully, and letting my fleshy needs go.
(6). The emergency button represents God. I was seeking Him, but didn't press the button out of fear.
(7). The train represents the unrighteous path leading to eternal death; away from God
(8). The two men jumping off, was my fleshy needs being denied by my present self because I am learning to follow God.
(9). The pain of jumping represents the hurts and pain I am going through to get to that correct path.
(10). The slowing of the train was God giving me the chance to save myself so I can follow Him again. To have faith and trust in Him, that He will be there to help me.
(11). The grassy land represents a time of feeling alone and helpless, thinking that there is nothing left.
(12). The highway presents God showing me that I am not alone and that there is help through Him. That my first step is to seek other Christians to help build my faith up. So the cars on the Highway are my christian family, the ones that I know now, and the ones that I still have yet to meet.
(13). I saved the two women with me because my future self is the Christian I will become, fully faithful to the Lord and more open about my love for Him. I had to save my past because she holds the scares of what I went through to help remind me to never turn back or look back. Remind me that where I once was, and how that is the path to death, and my future is the path to life.
This reminds me of Psalms 1:1 "Blessed is the man that walketh not in the cousel of the ungodly, nor standeth in the way of sinners, nor sitteth in the seat of the scornful." This dream showed me what would happen if I go back to the gay life, that I will be walking along with the sinner on my path to righteousness and eventually stop on my path which then will cause me to stand with them to get further away from God, until I am sitting with the sinner and mocking all the believers like they do. I have gotten to this point in 2010 after I was saved in 2007. I have been awaken to the sin I was committing in 2012, and started walking back on the righteous path towards God. I want to give courage to everyone, that even though I have fallen off my path a few times, that with the right help and support from other Christians that you can return to God. See the sin that you have committed and confess it to the Lord and ask for forgiveness and seek His face, and you will be on the track to eternal life. No one said it was going to be easy, it is usually the easy way that is the wrong way, and the hardest is the right way. That is why it is so hard to take that first jump because of fear of what will happen and what you have to give up to follow righteousness. I hope you see this and know that it's not to late to ask the Lord for forgiveness and surround yourself with Christian believers to help you and continue on the path of God.
May God Bless You!!!!!!
Romans 8:38-39 For I am persuaded that neither death, not life, not angels, nor principalities, not powers, nor things present, not things to come, nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
